Hi, I have been using drugs for 12 years, I was stuck on everything - screw, heroin methadone, etc. In my opinion, addiction does not occur during the first injection, but before it. Since childhood, I understood that something was wrong with me, although I could not then express it in words. This is a feeling that only an addicted person will understand, it can be described as "something is missing", a slight feeling of anxiety, anxiety and dissatisfaction that haunts 24 hours a day. I cannot remember any moments of childish serene happiness, I always wanted something else, but I did not know what exactly. Everything changed when I tried drugs for the first time: suddenly everything that disturbed me disappeared and there came a long-awaited feeling of absolute peace, acceptance of myself and the surrounding reality as they are. I started using immediately and a lot, because I found what I was looking for for so long. Like many, at some point, all this got tired and my epic began with the throwing of what I previously liked so much. I tried all the available methods - hospitals, psychologists, fortune-tellers, moving, filing oaths, tried to control my use, to frequent and use only soft drugs and alcohol. Nothing worked — I kept returning to uncontrolled injecting drug use and the accompanying destruction of my life. In one of the hospitals, a psychologist working there told me about the Narcotics Anonymous community and recommended that I visit it. I didn't really understand how some conversations at the meetings would help me to stop using, but after attending my first meeting, I saw people like me, but who no longer used, unlike me. I liked that no one condemned me, did not impose on me, the program is free, everyone can come and get the experience of people who have not used for years. Today I have not used any drugs or alcohol for 9 years and do not feel the slightest desire to change my mind. I am writing here because perhaps someone like me in that hospital is looking for a way out and this information will be useful to him.
Almost everyone who gives such dramatic answers is engaged in the criminal demonization of substances. And no impulses change to painful ones, and no physical dependence comes with a high, and from now on you are not a slave to poppy preparations. It is another matter that since you have already reached such an unusual substance these days, it means that you already have a specific social circle, and, judging by the question, this substance is already something special, exciting and dangerous for you, like sailing ship across the ocean. The easiest way to stop drinking is not for someone who suddenly felt a problem and censure of their loved ones, but for someone who does not sink, drinking every day, and does not hear the programming words from everyone around: "you are an alcoholic." It's the same with drugs. One moron will run to drug addicts anonymous, after having been around the clubs for a year and reaching the handle, and the other will get tired of this nonsense, shave and move on with life calmly, deciding that it was necessary. Another conversation, of course, is daily systematic use and inevitable withdrawal. If you are afraid to endure the withdrawal from drugs, or a hangover - do not drink or use at all, because the bottom begins with morning vodka with a hangover, with another track of stimulants, when it is already very bad - to push the exits for a couple of hours, and with another dose opiates when fever and vomit start the next day. Any high should be rare and easy.
From the experience of several acquaintances: there is nothing worse than the sensation of the first injection. They come to injection use over time, otherwise, most likely, everything will end in a vomiting room and such sensations that you won't want anything stronger than chamomile tea in life. Previously, heroin injections were used by those who found it difficult to get the required dose through smoking and eating opium. Today, most often through experiments with pharmaceutical preparations of codeine or the use of various "slow" substances that have ceased to have the desired effect.
Correct me if I'm wrong, but the essence of heroin addiction is not a pursuit of a high, but quite the opposite. The first commentator is probably partly right - when the buzz came, it means that the addiction also came. But not because you are addicted to a high.
Heroin causes a high, but also rebuilds biochemistry, as a result of which ordinary signals from nerve fibers begin to be perceived as painful. And this is where addiction comes in - because when it hurts, it seems, every cell in the body, you can do anything to escape from the pain. And it's easy to escape - you have to take more.
According to witnesses, heroin withdrawal is scary. And if the question was to get more buzz, perhaps the person would have restrained himself. You can live without a high. But when it’s about stopping the pain, it’s hard to stop using it.
And over time, more and more doses are needed to end hell. Drug addicts cannot think of anything other than that they need a drug, even if not heroin, but any dirty opiate, just to relieve withdrawal symptoms. And most die from an overdose - because sooner or later the dose that is needed to relieve withdrawal symptoms turns out to be more than the body can handle.
In short, you have to pay for the high in hell. The buzz has begun - that's it, wait for hell. When it will be - unpredictable, there are people who get hooked from the first injection.
As a practicing physician, I often heard: "there is no dependence on the first try." It's done, you started poking around in the keyhole (brain) with picks. The process started the first time. He did not give dependence, as it seemed to you. But undergoing chemical disturbances, the brain enters into dissonance, which is the harmfulness of drugs. And the opinion along with the doubt has already been formed. And the repetition will be earlier than six months. But you don't realize it yet. The very fact that you went for it is a great stupidity. And everything else is tricks, how to deceive oneself, and everyone has their own talent in this. "I thought that I was special, I did not expect that this could happen, I thought that I am smart, strong-willed and know myself well." And the majority consider themselves MacLeod. Whoever falls into this vicious circle will understand me.
There is no physical, but as a new sensation, a new, so to speak, a thrill .... It draws in quickly. The first time you try it, it's good. 2-3-4 days pass, you think everything is fine, you can repeat it, I can refuse. Again. Next time, every other day, you use it again with the same thoughts. And then the gap drops to several hours. All. Arrived ...
Yes, there is not much from the first dose of addiction or pleasure. In general, there is a book by W. Burroughs "Junkie", where heroin addiction is described in detail. According to Burroughs, the first doses are not enjoyable, but as soon as a person gets high from heroin, he is already addicted.