this is my situation! I'm not a psychologist, but I can say that these are very strange feelings. I am afraid to walk on the street alone, because there are many people around me, about whom I know nothing, who at any second can do anything, or people on the subway. perhaps this is suspiciousness. but at the same time I calmly go out into the street, I am in society, I communicate; inside me a hurricane of fear is raging, but outside, everything is ok and it does not affect my actions. maybe it's a psychological problem
Yes. Duality, the simultaneous presence of multidirectional feelings and desires (ambivalence) is generally a rule for people.
It's like with intimacy (in the sense, not necessarily just sex, in general, real intimacy between people). - Many people want her with all their hearts, and desperately coward the pain that she (and really!) Can bring.
Well, in fact, they always choose what they want more , whether they are aware of this or not ...