I lost all my strength, what should I do?
I Look To You | Whitney Houston
At the end of May, I began to feel weak, I didn't want to do anything (because I couldn't). After a couple of weeks, everything went away, I took up online courses in biology. Catching motivation and strength by the tail, I started doing something again. But this did not last long, only a week of classes, and here I am again in bed. Over the course of this year, I tried many different activities, but gave up after a maximum of a week. It is now September, and I began to feel more tiredness and an even greater loss of strength, I have to spend strength on moving around the apartment. My appetite changed, from the very beginning, in August I began to give up sweets and other small "joys", after a while the sweets ceased to please, and it makes me sick. Then, in general, I began to eat less, arguing that I like the bland taste in my mouth. Now, I am hungry, but as soon as I start eating, I understand that my stomach is full, but still the same hunger does not go away. I lie on the bed or on the floor, it is difficult to sit. By the way, about studying, problems appeared with her in the form of impaired attention and forgetfulness, that is, I come to school, and then it turns out that there was some task, but I could not just miss it, I am focused on the subject, with no one I don’t talk in class, neither in class, nor during recess (there are many reasons: I cannot stand communication even for more than a few minutes; I don’t want to intrude, because I’m very lethargic, and therefore not a very interesting interlocutor; I prefer to be alone than in company I do not have a close friend, like a very close friend who stayed in another city, and sometimes we communicate with him once a week or two, I have no other connections outside the family, they are more formal in nature; I do not understand how generally start conversations and, as a result, friends). It became more difficult to read, I am sitting with a book, and I understand that I do not remember what I read. I began to distort words and speak more slowly, now I am writing, and I do not know if I made mistakes in spelling or not. As if I was dull, it seems that everyone around is smarter than me, I do not understand some of the basics of subjects at school. In a conversation, my thoughts branch out and it turns out that several topics that originated from one need to be expressed, but these several are divided into several more and so I forget what I was talking about. This is another problem, I forget what I was talking about 10-20 seconds ago, my head is empty, as if I was dull. Rarely do you think about any abrupt actions, for example, "how not to hit this woman" or "how not to shout at that woman." I apologize for such a long text, perhaps there are sentences here that break off and another thought begins.