I absolutely agree with everything stated above, except that depression "will be removed like a hand." I know because my close friend and I went through this. She had depression, I had anxiety disorder. It sounds less scary, but the result is the same - the treatment is long and serious. She was treated for a year - and she was cured, I am still being treated for six months, but judging by the dynamics and my state of health, the doctor says that at least another six months will be treated. However, I want to note that a noticeable improvement occurred in the first two weeks of taking the drugs. The rest of the time, as the doctor explained to me, is spent on recovery, stabilization, and then gradual (very slow) withdrawal of the drug in order to prevent recurrence of the disease. It is written very well in this article wonderzine.com The worst thing is misunderstanding, fear, and all because very little is said and written about it with us, it's like a venereal disease.
I tell all my close people to warn and somehow raise awareness. I hope it helps you too.
Go to the doctor. It's not worth trying to get out of real depression, which is a full-fledged illness. It is best to find a psychiatrist / psychotherapist (not a psychologist!) And tell him / her everything at his / her appointment. Most likely, you will be prescribed antidepressants, you will take them on drink and your depression will be relieved. A couple of notes:
1) Do not try to drink these drugs yourself, they are very dangerous if used incorrectly
2) Be prepared for depression to return after you recover and finish drink medicine, or at some difficult moment in life. At the first sign of depression, do not repeat your mistake and immediately go to the doctor - then you will be able to "get off with a slight fright" and not drop out of life for a month or two.
3) Remember that you are sick and in what -to the least inadequate and cannot control yourself, do not blame yourself for this or for any actions. Communicate the same idea to family and friends so that there is no misunderstanding.