Was depressed at the beginning of quarantine.
Derealization was during the acute phase of depression. I looked at some object and felt like "what is it all about?" At the same time, I could not take my eyes off him.
Sartre described similar things in the book "Nausea". I began to re-read it and somehow it became easier, I'm not the only one like that.
Not so long ago, at the beginning of the quarantine, I again had a feeling of unreality of the world around me, as if I was "in cotton wool". Feelings and sensations were dulled. I really didn't like it.
I went and got tested for thyroid hormones. This happens with hypothyroidism.
I discussed this with my psychologist. It turned out that under the "cotton wool" there was strong anger. And when I express it, the vata goes away.
I also talked a lot with colleagues in different groups. It turned out that many experienced the same, in waves. It seems that this was one of the types of mental reaction to stress.
My conclusion: it's good when someone understands you at such moments. Even if this is the author of the book.
After an unsuccessful drug trip, I suffered like this for three months. For three months there were very frequent deja vu, probably fifty times. Sometimes several times a day. Sometimes deja vu inside deja vu. This is generally some kind of tin. It was terrifying.
How not to start being crazy about it, and not to think about your own reality and the reality of the world around you. How can I not think about free will?
But I seem to have kept my sanity, and now everything is over. My close people and time helped me. Yes, I just can't check if everything is real, if I'm real, but what's the difference in the long run? You have to enjoy life and believe in something.
To paint my story for a long time, but I can say with confidence that I got rid of DP and DR. Terrible conditions, I don't even know which one is worse if you choose between and between. I found the way to escape almost by myself [not pills]. By the way, if I didn't have these states, I wouldn't understand what it's like to live without social phobia :)